Verse Text
yathā vā—
kadāhaṁ yamunā-tīre nāmāni tava kīrtayan |
udbāṣpaḥ puṇḍarīkākṣa racayiṣyāmi tāṇḍavam ||156||
Translation
Another example is presented: O lotus-eyed Lord, when will I dance on the bank of the Yamunā with tears in my eyes while singing Your names?
Purport (Jiva Goswami)
Superficially, this appears to be a prayer (saṁprārthanā) of someone who has not manifested bhāva (since he is praying for it). Samprārthanā belongs to someone without the appearance of bhāva, whereas lālasā or prayers with intense longing belong to a person who has manifested bhāva. However, when a prayer (saṁprārthanā) is filled with a similar longing (expressing such bhāva, even though not attained) it is also called lālasā. Thus, this example is classed as lālasāmayī. Prayers and longing such as these are given here to illustrate the topic, but actually, they should be understood to be examples of rāgānuga-bhakti.
Purport (Nectar of Devotion)
In the same Nārada Paṣcarātra, there is another expression of submission, wherein the devotee says, “My dear Lord, O lotus-eyed one, when will that day come when on the bank of the Yamunā I shall become just like a madman and continue to chant Your holy name while incessant tears flow from my eyes?” This is another perfectional stage. Lord Caitanya also desired that “a moment will appear unto me as twelve years of time, and the whole world will appear to me as vacant on account of not seeing You, my dear Lord.” One should feelingly pray and become eager to render his particular type of service to the Lord. This is the teaching of all great devotees, especially Lord Caitanya.
In other words, one should learn how to cry for the Lord. One should learn this small technique, and he should be very eager and actually cry to become engaged in some particular type of service. This is called laulyam, and such tears are the price for the highest perfection. If one develops this laulyam, or excessive eagerness for meeting and serving the Lord in a particular way, that is the price to enter into the kingdom of God. Otherwise, there is no material calculation for the value of the ticket by which one can enter the kingdom of God. The only price for such entrance is this laulyam lālasā-mayī, or desire and great eagerness.