Verse Text
yathā vā aparādha-bhaṣjane –
kāmādīnāṁ kati na katidhā pālitā durnideśās
teṣāṁ jātā mayi na karuṇā na trapā nopaśāntiḥ |
utsṛjyaitān atha yadu-pate sāmprataṁ labdha-buddhis
tvām āyātaḥ śaraṇam abhayaṁ māṁ niyuṅkṣvātma-dāsye ||25||
Translation
Another example, from the Aparādha-bhaṣjana-stotra: Countless times I have followed the evil orders of lust and anger. They have not shown mercy to me, and I have not shown shame or ceased my sinful actions. Now, however, with acquisition of knowledge, I have given them up. O master of the Yadus! I have surrendered to Your fearless form. Please engage me as Your servant.
Purport (Nectar of Devotion)
In the Aparādha-bhaṣjana a pure devotee expresses his feelings: “My dear Lord, I am ashamed to admit before You that I have carried out the orders of my masters named lust, anger, avarice, illusion and envy. Sometimes I have carried out their orders in a way most abominable. Yet in spite of my serving them so faithfully, they are not satisfied, nor are they kind enough to give me relief from their service. They are not even ashamed of taking service from me in that way. My dear Lord, O head of the Yadu dynasty, now I have come to my senses, and I am taking shelter of Your lotus feet. Please engage me in Your service.” This is another instance of surrendering and taking shelter of the lotus feet of Kṛṣṇa.