Chapter Eighteen Śrī Kṛṣṇacandra-darśana The Sight of Śrī Kṛṣṇacandra

Śrī Nārada said: When the night had passed, Lord Kṛṣṇa, again magically transformed into a woman, went to King Vṛṣabhānu's palace to quiet Rādhā's distress.

When She saw He had come, Rādhā became very happy. Standing up, She offered Him a seat and worshiped Him according to custom.

duḥkhaṁ tathā bhāmini sat-prasaṅgataḥ śrī-rādhā uvāca—Śrī Rādhā said; tvayā—You; vinā—without; aham—I; niśi—at night; duḥkhitā—unhappy; āsam—was; tvayy—in You; āgatāyām—come; sakhī—O friend; labdha—attained; vastu—vaulable; vat—like; pūrvam—before; hy—indeed; apathyasya—of what is not beneficial; sukham—happiness; yathā—as; tataḥ—so; duḥkham—unhappiness; tathā—so; bhāmini—O beautiful one; sat-prasaṅgataḥ—from the company. Śrī Rādhā said: I was very unhappy at night without You. O friend, now that You have come I am like one who has found a great treasure. O beautiful one, first You made Me happy and then You made Me sad.

Śrī Nārada said: Hearing these words, Gopadevatā became sad. As if She were morose, She did not say anything to Śrī Rādhā.

Understanding that Gopadevatā had become unhappy, Rādhā and Her friends considered the situation. Full of affection, Rādhā spoke.

Śrī Rādhā said: Beautiful one, why are You unhappy? O Gopadevatā, please tell Me. Did Your mother, brother, sister, or sister-in-law speak angry words to You?

Did a co-wife fault You? Are You separated from Your brother? Does something else trouble Your heart? O beautiful one, why are You unhappy?

Did some trouble happen on the way here? Do You have a sickness? O beautiful one, please tell me at length why You are unhappy.

Did some brāhmaṇa who was not a devotee of Kṛṣṇa speak ill to You? O girl whose thighs are like banana trees, describe it, and I will cure Your unhappiness.

If You wish, please take many elephants, horses, jewels, costly garments, coins, and wonderful palaces.

By giving wealth one preserves another's body. By preserving the body one gives modesty. For the welfare of a friend, one should give Her wealth and thus preserve Her body and Her modesty. By always giving wealth one always preserves the lives of Her friends.

One who is a sincere, unselfish friend is glorious. One who is not sincere in her friendship is a cheater, or an actor. Fie on her!

O king, when He heard Her words of love, Lord Gopadevatā smiled and spoke to Kīrtī's daughter Rādhā.

Śrī Gopadevatā said: As He was walking on the beautiful narrow pathways by the hillside, and I was also walking there to sell some yogurt, Nanda's son, Kṛṣṇa, stopped Me.

Carrying a flute and holding a stick in His hand, the shameless fellow grabbed My hand, laughed, and said: "Now You must pay a tax to Me!" Talking in this way, He enjoyed in the forest.

When I said, "I will never pay anything to You, a rake greedy after yogurt", He took the yogurt-pot and broke it.

After breaking the pot, He drank the yogurt, grabbed My bodice, and then ran off toward Nandīśvara Hill. That is why I am unhappy.

Although by birth He is a gopa, today He has become a low-class śūdra. He is not a hero, and He does not have good character. O saintly girl, today You should be free of illusion. Give up Your love for this Kṛṣṇa.

Surprised to hear these harsh and hateful words, King Vṛṣabhānu's daughter Rādhā smiled and eloquently spoke to Her.

taṁ kṛṣṇam ādi-puruṣaṁ paripūrṇa-devaṁ līlāvatāram ajam arti-haraṁ janānām bhū-bhūri-hāra-bharaṇāya satāṁ śubhāya jātaṁ vinindasi kathaṁ sakhi durvinīte śrī-rādhā uvāca—Śrī Rādhā said; yat-prāptaye—to attain whom; vidhi-hara-pramukhāḥ—headed by Brahmā and Śiva; tapanti—perform austerities; vahnau—in the fire; tapaḥ—burning; paramayā—with great; nija-yoga-rītyā—yoga activities; dattaḥ—Dattātreya; śukaḥ—Śukadeva; kapila—Kapila; āsuriḥ—Asuri; aṅgirā—and Aṅgirā; yat—of whom; pādāravinda—of the lotus feet; makaranda-rajaḥ—the pollen; spṛśanti—touch; tam—Him; kṛṣṇam—Kṛṣṇa; ādi-puruṣam—the original Supreme Personality of Godhead; paripūrṇa-devam—the perfect Lord; līlāvatāram—who has descended to enjoy transcendental pastimes; ajam—unborn; arti—of miseries; haram—the remover; janānām—of the people; bhū—of the earth; bhūri—the great; bhāra—burden; haraṇāya——to remove; satām—of the devotees; śubhāya—for the welfare; jātam—born; vinindasi—You criticise; katham—why?; sakhi—O friend; durvinīte—uncivilized and foolish. Śrī Rādhā said: Foolish friend, why do You criticize Lord Kṛṣṇa, the original and perfect Supreme Personality of Godhead who, to enjoy pastimes, remove the earth's burden, and bring auspiciousness to the devotees, has descended to the earth, to attain whom Brahmā Śiva and all the demigods perform great yoga austerities, and the honey pollen of whose lotus feet Dattātreya, Śukadeva, Kapila, Asuri, and Aṅgirā touch?

taṁ kṛṣṇam ādi-puruṣaṁ paripūrṇa-devaṁ līlāvatāram ajam arti-haraṁ janānām bhū-bhūri-hāra-bharaṇāya satāṁ śubhāya jātaṁ vinindasi kathaṁ sakhi durvinīte śrī-rādhā uvāca—Śrī Rādhā said; yat-prāptaye—to attain whom; vidhi-hara-pramukhāḥ—headed by Brahmā and Śiva; tapanti—perform austerities; vahnau—in the fire; tapaḥ—burning; paramayā—with great; nija-yoga-rītyā—yoga activities; dattaḥ—Dattātreya; śukaḥ—Śukadeva; kapila—Kapila; āsuriḥ—Asuri; aṅgirā—and Aṅgirā; yat—of whom; pādāravinda—of the lotus feet; makaranda-rajaḥ—the pollen; spṛśanti—touch; tam—Him; kṛṣṇam—Kṛṣṇa; ādi-puruṣam—the original Supreme Personality of Godhead; paripūrṇa-devam—the perfect Lord; līlāvatāram—who has descended to enjoy transcendental pastimes; ajam—unborn; arti—of miseries; haram—the remover; janānām—of the people; bhū—of the earth; bhūri—the great; bhāra—burden; haraṇāya——to remove; satām—of the devotees; śubhāya—for the welfare; jātam—born; vinindasi—You criticise; katham—why?; sakhi—O friend; durvinīte—uncivilized and foolish. Śrī Rādhā said: Foolish friend, why do You criticize Lord Kṛṣṇa, the original and perfect Supreme Personality of Godhead who, to enjoy pastimes, remove the earth's burden, and bring auspiciousness to the devotees, has descended to the earth, to attain whom Brahmā Śiva and all the demigods perform great yoga austerities, and the honey pollen of whose lotus feet Dattātreya, Śukadeva, Kapila, Asuri, and Aṅgirā touch?

The gopas protect the cows. Without touching water, they are covered by cows' dust. The chant the cows' names. Day and night they see the cows' beautiful faces. On this earth no birth better than a gopas' birth.

Gazing at Kṛṣṇa's dark handsomeness, Śiva became attached to Him. Giving up all normal happiness, wearing matted hair, drinking poison, covered with ashes, and decorated with snakes and skulls, Śiva now walks and runs about like a madman.

He is the protector of the svarlokas, siddhas, munis, yakṣas, and maruts. He is the master of all the humans, kinnaras, and nāgas. Day and night the glorious great souls devotedly bow before His lotus feet and make offerings to Him.

He killed Vatsāsura, Agha, Kāliya, Baka, the arjuna trees, Dhenuka, Tṛṇāvārta, Sakaṭāsura, and Pūtanā! How great are His glories? He is the creator and destroyer of many millions of universes!

To Him, the Supreme Personality of Godhead, no one is more dear than His devotee. Neither Śiva, Brahmā, Lakṣmī, nor Balarāma is more dear. Lord Kṛṣṇa, the crest-jewel of all persons, His heart now bound with love, becomes the humble follower of His devotees.

Following His devotees here and there, He purifies the worlds. He loudly declares His love for His devotees. To those who worship Him, Lord Kṛṣṇa easily gives liberation, but He does not easily give pure devotional service.

O Rādhā, Your intelligence laughs at Bṛhaspati and Your works cleverly mock the Vedas. When the Supreme Personality of Godhead Himself comes here and confirms Your words, only then will I believe them.

Śrī Rādhā said: O girl with the beautiful eyebrows, tell Me, if the Supreme Personality of Godhead personally comes here, what will I do about You? If the Lord who wears a forest garland comes, I will not be able to give My palace and all My wealth to You.

Śrī Nārada said: Rādhā stood up, bowed before Kṛṣṇa, and gave Him a seat. Then She closed Her eyes in meditation.

paśyantīnāṁ sakhīnāṁ ca sahasā bhakta-vatsalaḥ rādhāṁ prāha prasannātmā megha-gambhīrayā girā utkaṇṭhitām—filled with longing; sveda-yuktām—perspiring; bāṣpa—tears; kaṇṭhīm—neck; priyām—beloved; hariḥ—Kṛṣṇa; aśru—with tears; pūrṇa—filled; mukhīm—face; vīkṣya—seeing; bibhrat—manifesting; svam—own; pauruṣīm—male; tanum—form; paśyantīnām—looking on; sakhīnām—friends; ca—and; sahasā—at once; bhakta—to the devotees; vatsalaḥ—affectionate; rādhām—to Rādhā; prāha—spoke; prasanna—pleased; ātmā—at heart; megha—clouds; gambhīrayā—deep; girā—with words. Watching His beloved perspiring and full of longings, and watching Her face fill with tears than ran down Her neck, as Her friends looked on, Lord Kṛṣṇa, who is kind to His devotees, became pleased at heart with Her, suddenly manifested His own male form, and spoke to Her in a voice deep as thunder.

paśyantīnāṁ sakhīnāṁ ca sahasā bhakta-vatsalaḥ rādhāṁ prāha prasannātmā megha-gambhīrayā girā utkaṇṭhitām—filled with longing; sveda-yuktām—perspiring; bāṣpa—tears; kaṇṭhīm—neck; priyām—beloved; hariḥ—Kṛṣṇa; aśru—with tears; pūrṇa—filled; mukhīm—face; vīkṣya—seeing; bibhrat—manifesting; svam—own; pauruṣīm—male; tanum—form; paśyantīnām—looking on; sakhīnām—friends; ca—and; sahasā—at once; bhakta—to the devotees; vatsalaḥ—affectionate; rādhām—to Rādhā; prāha—spoke; prasanna—pleased; ātmā—at heart; megha—clouds; gambhīrayā—deep; girā—with words. Watching His beloved perspiring and full of longings, and watching Her face fill with tears than ran down Her neck, as Her friends looked on, Lord Kṛṣṇa, who is kind to His devotees, became pleased at heart with Her, suddenly manifested His own male form, and spoke to Her in a voice deep as thunder.

Śrī Kṛṣṇa said: O girl whose thighs are like banana trees, O girl whose face is like the moon, O queen of the beautiful girls of Vraja, O Rādhā, O beloved, O girl with all the virtues of youth, open Your eyes! Look! Called by Your sweet words, I have come!

When I heard You say, "O Kṛṣṇa, please come", I at once left the gopas at Vaṁśīvāṭa by the Yamunā's shore and ran here to please You. O beautiful one, I have come.

O saintly one, I am here. What yakṣī, asurī, demigoddess, or kinnarī could have fooled You with magic as I have? You would not have believed them. Nor would You have believed a snake-goddess either.

Śrī Nārada said: O king, Rādhā gazed at Kṛṣṇa and bowed before His lotus feet. Her desires fulfilled, She was very happy.

A person who with devotion hears these wonderful pastimes of Lord Kṛṣṇacandra attains the supreme goal of life.